Mixed Feelings

Come to think of it, maybe I should give him another chance?

It is terribly wrong of me to be superficial. Physical appearance and social status or wealth are not the golden rules in a successful and long-lasting relationship. It has to be the personality and chemistry that matter, isn't it?

But then again, there must be some initial physical attraction to ignite the dazzling spark.

So he only fulfills a pathetic 2 out of my 4 prerequisite criteria: Humble and quiet....ok, maybe tall as well, but actually 5cm short of the ideal height.

I do detect some sort of chemistry though. We can talk for an hour on the phone, reminiscing our lives, sharing our hobbies and interests, and finding out more minute details about each other during our conversations.

And I am absolutely charmed by his reassuring tone of voice, his unassuming Ozzie accent, and his exuding charisma in it. I think that is indeed the main alluring factor.

His comforting and encouraging words upon hearing my grouses and setbacks here, and his empathy for my feelings are true assets in our friendship. Somehow he does resemble 2 of my closer male friends back home who were, once upon a time, hot in their pursuits as well.

A good pal of mine who can probably read my confused mind like a reflecting mirror now did remind me last night in a frank and merciless way: "Beggars cannot be choosers." I have found a priceless soulmate, who is actively learning how to cook for me and will probably worship the ground I tread on. So why am I still hesitating?

I think I will give it a shot. Perhaps I truly need a distraction and a new direction.