Anger

I need to confront this today: Anger.

It has become the predominance of my emotions since the beginning of this year. And currently so over the last few weeks.

I was angry with myself for being myopic and naive when dealing with those complex "friends" in Sydney.

I was angry with the administrative department for screwing my rosters and wasting my 6 months here.

I was angry with that admin b**** for making my life miserable during my medical rotation.

I was angry with the medical senior staff for being self-centered and not standing up for our rights.

I was angry with my colleagues for being hostile and unappreciative of my help at work.

I was angry with my friend here for being mean to me during my most vulnerable moments.

I was angry with my friend back home for not treating our friendship with more respect and trust.

I was angry with Him for being rigid and not calling me more frequently.

I was angry with Him for being guarded and not telling me more, keeping me in dreaded suspense about his life.

I am still angry with Him now.

My grandma used to tell me when I was young: "When you get angry, some of your cells die and you live shorter."

I am trying to control my emotions.

"Anger is a thief that steals away even the nicest moments."