Life Updates

Life has improved tremendously for me. At least for now. I have settled down comfortably in my abode where I was boarding with a Shanghainese family. Though I do feel the itch to shift again to an apartment by myself or with friends, all for the sake of INDEPENDENCE. I guess I should be grateful and contented at this stage.

Work has been pleasurable, especially since I bought my beloved car. No more sweat or braving the rain when walking to work. Colleagues and superiors have been friendlier and more civilised. Patients are more polite and receptive. No tinge of discrimination or racism felt this time. I am beginning to love my job. My friend who was doing psychology said it was a vicious cycle. It could have been the bitterness in me right at the start that triggered these unpleasant counter-reactions from others, and now that I made an effort to flash my radiant smile at every living objects on earth, I received similar responses from them. It was all about transferences. He could not have been more right about it. Psychology is a fascinating arena.

I have made more new friends, both in Newcastle and Sydney. They are mostly Asians, all non-Singaporeans. There are pockets of Singaporeans around. But they have never been sincere. They tend to keep to themselves and mind their own businesses. Why am I not surprised? That was a push factor for my decision to uproot myself in the first place. Singaporeans have always posed negative influences on my life, from having to deal with demanding and ungrateful patients, to societal and peer pressure when considering marriage. My mother would understand best since she had been the faithful listener to all my daily ramblings and complaints before I started this blog. I told her on the phone that I am very happy here, now that I can be myself, my carefree and cheerful self. She gave me all her blessings.

I had a nice meal with my colleague-friends yesterday. One from India and one from Malaysia. They were extremely positive about life. No wallowing in self-pity. They came with enthusiasm and energy, ready to maximise every minute and potential they had. They enjoyed their independence and freedom and held reasonable beliefs about marriages and society. They exerted healthy influences and exuded self-confidence.

They did however comment on my "pathological" relationship with I.L., which surprised me since no one had ever used that word. But there is a sense of truth and logic in it. Another disappointment assailed me when I heard that a colleague whom I faintly admired could have been a gay. Sigh......talk about lack of fate.

My friend asked if I would uproot myself again if my boyfriend or husband wishes to return to his own land and serve the nation (altruistically reasoned). I did give that a thought. My answer: I would follow where he goes, even if it's the North Pole, for I would have given him my heart by then.

I am off-work today, again :) Going down to the famous Hunter Valley wineries today for an expectantly delicious lunch and wine-tasting with my friends. My salivary glands are stimulating with anticipation. Await my next post on it.